Watching my weight go DOWN!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Wake up call.

Two nights ago I had a dream that it was finally the day of the triathlon. I had my gear on and was ready to go. I started swimming and felt as if I was swimming through quick sand. I finally made it to shore just to see that I was the last one out of the murky water. I ran to the the transition area only to find that I didn't have a bike. It was gone. Either I didn't bring one or someone stole it...I didnt even know!! For 45 minutes I looked for a bike(I don't know why that time stuck out so distinctly) and I finally found one. Not a road bike, not a mountain bike, but something that looked like it was straight out of my parents childhood.
I obviously had no time to be picky so I jumped on it just to realize that the tire was flat. I remember feeling like I wanted to cry but I knew I had to finish. So I got off the bike and pumped up the tire.(With a pump that seemed to magically appear in my hand...as they do in dreams). I FINALLY made it to the last transistion. It was time to run. I started running, and it actually was the easiest part of the whole shebang (which is DEFINITELY not true in real life). I saw that everyone had pretty much already left for the awards and nobody seemed to notice that I hadnt finished yet. I crossed over the line with a whopping time of about 3 1/2 hours. To put this in perspective...an average time is an hour and a half and most people are finished within 2 hours. I woke up feeling like a failure. Defeat. Anxiety. Panic. All started to set in and the realization that the tri was only a month and a half away became more alive than ever. Thoughts of quitting immediately entered my brain. The accusatory thoughts of laziness and lack of self worth started overwhelming my senses. I felt my soul shrinking with each accusation of how stupid I was to even think I could do something like this. Then came an indescribable peace. A calm. "I can do all things through Him who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13. and "But Jesus looked at them and said, <em>"With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."" Matthew 19:26 With these verses I was reminded that I am not alone. But not only that. I am reminded that I am NOT doing this just for myself....because I cannot do this by myself. The anxiety sets in when I begin doing it for prideful reasons. When I put pressure on myself for how it will make me "look" if I dont make a great time. But pride, anxiety, and worry are all from the deceiver...not from my Creator and Savior. He is not a God of chaos. I had to repent immediately for my selfishness and hand it back over to Him. How often do I want to get the credit for what I'm doing. I did this. And I did that. It's sad that someone as insignificant as myself can think that I am doing "so well" without giving ALL the glory to the one who made me, this planet, THIS UNIVERSE. I do not deserve anything. I do not deserve better. Only God deserves the GLORY from anything I do. How often does He humble me. With love and assurance He reminds me that He is in control. Let us rejoice for He is Good. Let us trust Him in ALL that we do. No matter how insignificant it seems. HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

I sure wish this craving for anything fried would go away...

THE WEEKEND: Saturday my family and I ran the 5k! It was fun but FREEZING...I was expecting nice 60 degree weather in South Carolina...but it was 29 degrees that morning!! I,not thinking ahead, only packed shorts for the event. Not only was I about 1 out of 2 people wearing shorts..but I am also THE definition of pale...so I stuck out like a sore thumb. But I had to embrace the whiteness and the antartican temperatures and get on with it. My dad, brother, and I started running at a good pace. Then when it felt like we had run a mile already we saw we had ran only .2 miles...I just had to keep telling myself "mind over matter". My lungs were burning from the cold air but having my dad by my side helped me to keep going. The course was VERY hilly. And there was about a quarter of a mile that the path was big enough for MAYBE 2 very-small children...well there were about 300 adults trying to run...and there ended up being about 75 of us just walking up this trail because there was literally no room. Before we knew it, the race was over and we clocked in at 40 minutes. With all the walking and freezing air, I was OK with this. BUT for the triathlon I want to do it well under 30 minutes. My mom and aunt were in the first group of walkers to finish--so they also did a great job!! All that being said...I have my work cut out for me.

The past couple of days I have noticed that I have felt very sluggish. Then I also noticed that I am not even coming close to drinking half of the amount of water that I usually drink. I don't really know why I slacked on that, but I'm back to my normal drinking regime. Close to a gallon a day. And man does it make a difference.

A month and a half until the triathlon!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. That was me screaming in my head because I am not feeling ready. BUt it is going to take me working my butt off(literally--ha) the rest of the time to be able to FINISH. PLEASE be praying for my endurance and motivation because lately I havent been feeling much.

The past couple of days I have had people ask me if I have lost weight! Is that a good feeling or what? I have been seeing numbers come down on the scale, but when I have looked in the mirror I havent noticed a difference. So it is very encouraging to hear others say that they can see it.

Sorry this has been all over the place. Go and enjoy your day! :) We are breathing...alive...and THRIVING. Glorify HIM in all you do today.

"You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand. And it gives light to all who are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven." (Matthew 5:14-16)

Friday, March 5, 2010

I love Butter Rum lifesavers.


THEY ARE DELICIOUS! An older lady that I work with always has them, and she actually bought me a whole bag of the delectable morsels a couple of weeks ago. This generally gives me my sugar "fix" for the day...but I do have to be careful. Four of those babies are 50 calories. Thats a half mile run right there...is it worth it? Most definitely...NO. But they are yummy so I try to keep to 2 a day. Sometimes I splurge ;)

Tomorrow is the 5k!! I am so excited to go down to sunny SC and see my family! It will definitely be a bonding experience...hehe. We need to be at the race no later than 7 am (but more like 6:30 am) and then we will do brunch afterwards. Much fun!! Like I said before..my dad, brother, and I have signed up for running. Now, whether any of us are actually going to be able to run 3 miles is yet to be known...but one thing I do know, is it is ALL mental. Yessiree bobtail. When I stop running on the treadmill, it's not that I physically cant keep going...it's because I mentally don't want to keep going! Tomorrow will be a battle of mind over matter. I want to run that race like it's going out of style. So please keep me and my family in your prayers!! It will be a fun day and hopefully a motivating and uplifting day for everyone. I "ran" my first 5k in August with a few of my girl friends and fell in love with the atmosphere and spirit of the whole race. Hopefully it will be something they will want to continue to pursue. Plus it's for a good cause ;)

Sorry for the randomness today. I took a B12 vitamin a little bit ago and I now feel HYPER..ha. Oh how I love energy. But with energy has come a scattered brain. So my apologies.

Have a WONDERFUL weekend!!!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Stop Wasting Your Life.

Today I am feeling refreshed. Refreshed because I am ALIVE. How often(everyday) do I take it for granted. The living Lord has given me breath this morning. Today, I can make good choices instead of bad ones. Today I can serve others and not myself. Today I can uplift the people around me. Today I can love the Lord my God with ALL of my heart, and not just part of my heart because it is "easier". Today is a GIFT. SO many times do I find myself wishing for the future. Wishing for vacation..living for the weekend! Just by reading my blog titles you can see how much that is true. I am not guranteed tomorrow, or even the next minute or hour. So who am I to not give EVERYTHING that I am into today. To truly perform my best in all I do, love others, and most of all, Love My Savior. Procrastination has been a huge part of my life for as long as I can remember. To be honest, I have never been convicted of procrastination until this moment. Putting people, work, exercise, and time with the Lord off just because I don't "feel" like it...aka laziness...is a sin. I suck up precious time I could be spending with others, or preparing my body to be the temple it was built to be by watching tv, sleeping, or being on the internet. It's all sin, and it literally causes me to waste my life. My sinful nature is telling me I am being over zealous right now. That I should delete all of this because it will offend someone or someone will disagree with it. But Jesus has a funny way of doing that. Offending people. Telling us what we dont want to hear. He has cut my heart into pieces this morning in a way that only He can. I challenge all of you to look at your schedules. What are you spending most of your time doing!? Most of us here have a goal to lose pounds, inches, and get in shape. Is this a bad thing? Absolutely not! In fact, it takes a lot of self control and self discipline. But let us keep it in check. It takes dedication to lose weight, but it takes even more effort to keep up relationships with our friends and family. When we die, nobody is going to care about our diets or how fast we could run--but they WILL remember the effort we put into their lives. They will remember our dedication to the Lord. And with God, we can achieve a healthy balance to our work outs, relationships, and LIFE. Let us LIVE every day because it is a gift. Glorifying the Lord in all the what do. In our words, thoughts, and actions. Let us not wish for tomorrow but put hope into today!! WE ARE ALIVE!!!

The following is a blog entry I came across this morning. It has truly convicted my heart. Any comments, questions, whatever are certainly welcome :)

We’re Losing More Than Time

"Sometimes a whole day can slip by and nothing gets accomplished. Often it’s 15 minutes here, a half-hour there, 20 minutes here, an hour there, and suddenly you’re wondering where the day went.

For some people wasting time is a source of guilt (I would fall into the “heavy guilt” category), for others it’s a way of life. Nevertheless, we are commanded by God to be wise stewards of our time. Ephesians 5:15-16 says, “Therefore be careful how you walk, not as unwise men, but as wise, making the most of your time, because the days are evil.”

Our culture tries hard to distract us from our responsibilities. In a certain sense they don’t want us to be responsible to anyone but them and their products! According to a study released by Forbes Magazine the typical television viewer fritters away three years of his life being bombarded with commercials.

Studies like that make us mad. How dare they suck away our precious years in an attempt to get our money?!? Unfortunately, there are millions of little distractions fighting for things much more valuable than our money — they’re fighting for our character and competence.

They might seem harmless — the book we’ve already read, the online forum or message board where we “reach out,” the 5-minute video we found online, the new World Magazine comic section, the video game that’s fun and clean, a review of the latest star-studded flick, or that article on Google News about the kitten with two heads.

Harmless? Not at all. The price is the character that might have been and the competence that would have been. If we were to devote all the time we spend reading random news stories online to reading life-changing, soul-feeding books, how might our relationship with Christ flourish?

If we were to devote all the time we spend watching television to developing our talents in the areas of writing, speaking, musical instruments, filmmaking, painting, sewing, gardening, woodworking, web design, landscaping, computer programming, etc. how much more effective might we be in the Kingdom of God?

When we watch some “cool” video online we’ve lost more than just 10 minutes of time. We’ve lost every good thing we might have done with those 10 minutes.

When God’s Word tells us to “make the most of our time” it means: “Squeeze every last ounce of growth and grace out of every second of every minute of every hour of every day!”

Acceptable “Time-Wasters”
It is never acceptable to waste time. However, we also must be wise in determining what is “wasted time” and what is simple “character-building time.” For example, I am sometimes tempted to get stressed about “wasting time” with my family. Perhaps I’m taking my little brother James for a walk, and I think “Aaaaaahh!!! This is 15 minutes of my day that is not whole-heartedly pursuing growth!!!” (OK, that isn’t exactly what I think.)

This stress also tends to hit during my devotions. I’m reading my Bible and this voice in my head starts reading off my ToDo List for the day: “OK Brett, today you need to redesign the conference poster, mail the brochures to Jennifer, write a blog post, read a chapter in the 5 different books you’re reading, write two lab reports for science class, finish your “big question” essay project, practice the piano, AND on top of that, mom probably has 10 huge chores for you to do!! Hahahahaha!!!!” (This voice is very annoying)

The truth is that these two areas (i.e. God and family), require a rare kind of character and competence that Satan hates. Time spent serving our family or seeking the Lord is never wasted. Guilt or frustration due to time spent in these areas is misplaced — placed by the enemy."


For more go to : http://www.therebelution.com/blog/2006/02/stop-wasting-time/

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Not the Biggest Loser...

So, I weighed in this morning at 136 lbs. Which is GREAT...but it put me in second place in the weight loss challenge. I didn't win the big money but I DID gain health and I DID lose pounds. And inches :) I still have 16 pounds to go. My goal is to lose 8 lbs this month. Two pounds a week is totally doable. So I'm putting my mind to it...and we will pray for results! I'm not in a writing mood today...so this will be it. But I just wanted to update everyone! Halfway to friday!! :-D

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

I think I can...I think I can....I think I can....

Yesterday was great! I ate well and exercised well :) I swam about 40 laps last night...and still felt like I could do more. If it wasn't so late, I would have. I am really starting to enjoy my swim workouts. Drowning doesn't seem like much of an option anymore ;) I watched some youtube videos on transitions during the triathlon. What they look like, and how to prepare for them. How did people ever live without the internet? If it wasn't for me being able to watch how to prepare myself...I would be a nervous wreck the day of the tri. Who am I kidding, I will STILL be a nervous wreck. But at least I'll semi-know what to expect...hopefully making getting to the end of the race, that much easier. I cannot wait to cross that finish line. God Willing, of course. :)

I had the oppurtunity to speak to the vice-president of the company I work for today about organizing a 5k for the employees to participate in. It will promote wellness, raise money for a charity, and also get our name out there as a business. He seemed to really like the idea... so maybe in the near future it will transpire into something tangible!

Tomorrow is the FINAL weigh in for the weight-loss challenge at work. I definitely have a chance to win--but I am super nervous. If I dont win its OK, but the extra money would sure be nice...and just for pure bragging rights :) I am eating very minimal today and working out alot tonight....AND in the morning. I'm going swimming before work...and where I swim, also has a sauna...so I might sweat out a little extra fluid before the weigh in ;) Hey, every drop counts. I'll let you be the first to know the final verdict!

Monday, March 1, 2010

Just Another Manic Monday...Oooohhhhh

What is it about the weekend that makes eating healthy so dagum hard? Though, Saturday was REALLY good sunday made up for it in a horrible way. On Saturday, I got up and ran with katie and did some weight training. Came home, cleaned a bit, and then went to the pool for about an hour. I ate really well the whole day...which I had to, to make up for my cracker barrell fiasco the night before. Then Sunday rolls around....and that was a different story. I ate a healthy breakfast. So I started off on the right track...but then we got to church. And at church they had DONUTS. so I ate two of those. grrr. Lunch wasnt bad..I had a 6" sandwhich from subway. Later in the afternoon I went to the gym...jumped on the treadmill and for some reason felt SO weak. My body was shaky and it was like I had never excercised before. So I jumped on the bike...not much better. Yesterday was just a bad day. After my "work out" which it definitely shouldnt be called that..I went home and a couple of our friends came over...I made spaghetti, green beans, and bread....and they brought a blueberry pie. BLUEBERRY PIE. It was delicious but I regret eating it now. Oh how I hate diet regrets. I am on my very best behavior for the rest of the week. The LAST weigh in for work is on Wednesday and the 5k is Saturday...so I kind of have alot to get working on. I am swimming tonight! My stroke is getting better and my lungs arent collapsing as quickly so I think those are all good signs of a building endurance ;) Pray that my motivation only gets stronger and that my mentality stays positive. LESS than 2 months to the triathlon...in the words of a teenie bopper...O.M.G.


Caroline...this picture is for you. I felt that you would appreciate the corniness of it ;)

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1 Corinthians 10:13


God has given me SELF CONTROL....where is it!? gr.