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Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Wake up call.

Two nights ago I had a dream that it was finally the day of the triathlon. I had my gear on and was ready to go. I started swimming and felt as if I was swimming through quick sand. I finally made it to shore just to see that I was the last one out of the murky water. I ran to the the transition area only to find that I didn't have a bike. It was gone. Either I didn't bring one or someone stole it...I didnt even know!! For 45 minutes I looked for a bike(I don't know why that time stuck out so distinctly) and I finally found one. Not a road bike, not a mountain bike, but something that looked like it was straight out of my parents childhood.
I obviously had no time to be picky so I jumped on it just to realize that the tire was flat. I remember feeling like I wanted to cry but I knew I had to finish. So I got off the bike and pumped up the tire.(With a pump that seemed to magically appear in my they do in dreams). I FINALLY made it to the last transistion. It was time to run. I started running, and it actually was the easiest part of the whole shebang (which is DEFINITELY not true in real life). I saw that everyone had pretty much already left for the awards and nobody seemed to notice that I hadnt finished yet. I crossed over the line with a whopping time of about 3 1/2 hours. To put this in average time is an hour and a half and most people are finished within 2 hours. I woke up feeling like a failure. Defeat. Anxiety. Panic. All started to set in and the realization that the tri was only a month and a half away became more alive than ever. Thoughts of quitting immediately entered my brain. The accusatory thoughts of laziness and lack of self worth started overwhelming my senses. I felt my soul shrinking with each accusation of how stupid I was to even think I could do something like this. Then came an indescribable peace. A calm. "I can do all things through Him who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13. and "But Jesus looked at them and said, <em>"With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."" Matthew 19:26 With these verses I was reminded that I am not alone. But not only that. I am reminded that I am NOT doing this just for myself....because I cannot do this by myself. The anxiety sets in when I begin doing it for prideful reasons. When I put pressure on myself for how it will make me "look" if I dont make a great time. But pride, anxiety, and worry are all from the deceiver...not from my Creator and Savior. He is not a God of chaos. I had to repent immediately for my selfishness and hand it back over to Him. How often do I want to get the credit for what I'm doing. I did this. And I did that. It's sad that someone as insignificant as myself can think that I am doing "so well" without giving ALL the glory to the one who made me, this planet, THIS UNIVERSE. I do not deserve anything. I do not deserve better. Only God deserves the GLORY from anything I do. How often does He humble me. With love and assurance He reminds me that He is in control. Let us rejoice for He is Good. Let us trust Him in ALL that we do. No matter how insignificant it seems. HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

I sure wish this craving for anything fried would go away...

THE WEEKEND: Saturday my family and I ran the 5k! It was fun but FREEZING...I was expecting nice 60 degree weather in South Carolina...but it was 29 degrees that morning!! I,not thinking ahead, only packed shorts for the event. Not only was I about 1 out of 2 people wearing shorts..but I am also THE definition of I stuck out like a sore thumb. But I had to embrace the whiteness and the antartican temperatures and get on with it. My dad, brother, and I started running at a good pace. Then when it felt like we had run a mile already we saw we had ran only .2 miles...I just had to keep telling myself "mind over matter". My lungs were burning from the cold air but having my dad by my side helped me to keep going. The course was VERY hilly. And there was about a quarter of a mile that the path was big enough for MAYBE 2 very-small children...well there were about 300 adults trying to run...and there ended up being about 75 of us just walking up this trail because there was literally no room. Before we knew it, the race was over and we clocked in at 40 minutes. With all the walking and freezing air, I was OK with this. BUT for the triathlon I want to do it well under 30 minutes. My mom and aunt were in the first group of walkers to finish--so they also did a great job!! All that being said...I have my work cut out for me.

The past couple of days I have noticed that I have felt very sluggish. Then I also noticed that I am not even coming close to drinking half of the amount of water that I usually drink. I don't really know why I slacked on that, but I'm back to my normal drinking regime. Close to a gallon a day. And man does it make a difference.

A month and a half until the triathlon!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. That was me screaming in my head because I am not feeling ready. BUt it is going to take me working my butt off(literally--ha) the rest of the time to be able to FINISH. PLEASE be praying for my endurance and motivation because lately I havent been feeling much.

The past couple of days I have had people ask me if I have lost weight! Is that a good feeling or what? I have been seeing numbers come down on the scale, but when I have looked in the mirror I havent noticed a difference. So it is very encouraging to hear others say that they can see it.

Sorry this has been all over the place. Go and enjoy your day! :) We are breathing...alive...and THRIVING. Glorify HIM in all you do today.

"You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand. And it gives light to all who are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven." (Matthew 5:14-16)

Friday, March 5, 2010

I love Butter Rum lifesavers.

THEY ARE DELICIOUS! An older lady that I work with always has them, and she actually bought me a whole bag of the delectable morsels a couple of weeks ago. This generally gives me my sugar "fix" for the day...but I do have to be careful. Four of those babies are 50 calories. Thats a half mile run right it worth it? Most definitely...NO. But they are yummy so I try to keep to 2 a day. Sometimes I splurge ;)

Tomorrow is the 5k!! I am so excited to go down to sunny SC and see my family! It will definitely be a bonding experience...hehe. We need to be at the race no later than 7 am (but more like 6:30 am) and then we will do brunch afterwards. Much fun!! Like I said dad, brother, and I have signed up for running. Now, whether any of us are actually going to be able to run 3 miles is yet to be known...but one thing I do know, is it is ALL mental. Yessiree bobtail. When I stop running on the treadmill, it's not that I physically cant keep's because I mentally don't want to keep going! Tomorrow will be a battle of mind over matter. I want to run that race like it's going out of style. So please keep me and my family in your prayers!! It will be a fun day and hopefully a motivating and uplifting day for everyone. I "ran" my first 5k in August with a few of my girl friends and fell in love with the atmosphere and spirit of the whole race. Hopefully it will be something they will want to continue to pursue. Plus it's for a good cause ;)

Sorry for the randomness today. I took a B12 vitamin a little bit ago and I now feel HYPER..ha. Oh how I love energy. But with energy has come a scattered brain. So my apologies.

Have a WONDERFUL weekend!!!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Stop Wasting Your Life.

Today I am feeling refreshed. Refreshed because I am ALIVE. How often(everyday) do I take it for granted. The living Lord has given me breath this morning. Today, I can make good choices instead of bad ones. Today I can serve others and not myself. Today I can uplift the people around me. Today I can love the Lord my God with ALL of my heart, and not just part of my heart because it is "easier". Today is a GIFT. SO many times do I find myself wishing for the future. Wishing for for the weekend! Just by reading my blog titles you can see how much that is true. I am not guranteed tomorrow, or even the next minute or hour. So who am I to not give EVERYTHING that I am into today. To truly perform my best in all I do, love others, and most of all, Love My Savior. Procrastination has been a huge part of my life for as long as I can remember. To be honest, I have never been convicted of procrastination until this moment. Putting people, work, exercise, and time with the Lord off just because I don't "feel" like it...aka a sin. I suck up precious time I could be spending with others, or preparing my body to be the temple it was built to be by watching tv, sleeping, or being on the internet. It's all sin, and it literally causes me to waste my life. My sinful nature is telling me I am being over zealous right now. That I should delete all of this because it will offend someone or someone will disagree with it. But Jesus has a funny way of doing that. Offending people. Telling us what we dont want to hear. He has cut my heart into pieces this morning in a way that only He can. I challenge all of you to look at your schedules. What are you spending most of your time doing!? Most of us here have a goal to lose pounds, inches, and get in shape. Is this a bad thing? Absolutely not! In fact, it takes a lot of self control and self discipline. But let us keep it in check. It takes dedication to lose weight, but it takes even more effort to keep up relationships with our friends and family. When we die, nobody is going to care about our diets or how fast we could run--but they WILL remember the effort we put into their lives. They will remember our dedication to the Lord. And with God, we can achieve a healthy balance to our work outs, relationships, and LIFE. Let us LIVE every day because it is a gift. Glorifying the Lord in all the what do. In our words, thoughts, and actions. Let us not wish for tomorrow but put hope into today!! WE ARE ALIVE!!!

The following is a blog entry I came across this morning. It has truly convicted my heart. Any comments, questions, whatever are certainly welcome :)

We’re Losing More Than Time

"Sometimes a whole day can slip by and nothing gets accomplished. Often it’s 15 minutes here, a half-hour there, 20 minutes here, an hour there, and suddenly you’re wondering where the day went.

For some people wasting time is a source of guilt (I would fall into the “heavy guilt” category), for others it’s a way of life. Nevertheless, we are commanded by God to be wise stewards of our time. Ephesians 5:15-16 says, “Therefore be careful how you walk, not as unwise men, but as wise, making the most of your time, because the days are evil.”

Our culture tries hard to distract us from our responsibilities. In a certain sense they don’t want us to be responsible to anyone but them and their products! According to a study released by Forbes Magazine the typical television viewer fritters away three years of his life being bombarded with commercials.

Studies like that make us mad. How dare they suck away our precious years in an attempt to get our money?!? Unfortunately, there are millions of little distractions fighting for things much more valuable than our money — they’re fighting for our character and competence.

They might seem harmless — the book we’ve already read, the online forum or message board where we “reach out,” the 5-minute video we found online, the new World Magazine comic section, the video game that’s fun and clean, a review of the latest star-studded flick, or that article on Google News about the kitten with two heads.

Harmless? Not at all. The price is the character that might have been and the competence that would have been. If we were to devote all the time we spend reading random news stories online to reading life-changing, soul-feeding books, how might our relationship with Christ flourish?

If we were to devote all the time we spend watching television to developing our talents in the areas of writing, speaking, musical instruments, filmmaking, painting, sewing, gardening, woodworking, web design, landscaping, computer programming, etc. how much more effective might we be in the Kingdom of God?

When we watch some “cool” video online we’ve lost more than just 10 minutes of time. We’ve lost every good thing we might have done with those 10 minutes.

When God’s Word tells us to “make the most of our time” it means: “Squeeze every last ounce of growth and grace out of every second of every minute of every hour of every day!”

Acceptable “Time-Wasters”
It is never acceptable to waste time. However, we also must be wise in determining what is “wasted time” and what is simple “character-building time.” For example, I am sometimes tempted to get stressed about “wasting time” with my family. Perhaps I’m taking my little brother James for a walk, and I think “Aaaaaahh!!! This is 15 minutes of my day that is not whole-heartedly pursuing growth!!!” (OK, that isn’t exactly what I think.)

This stress also tends to hit during my devotions. I’m reading my Bible and this voice in my head starts reading off my ToDo List for the day: “OK Brett, today you need to redesign the conference poster, mail the brochures to Jennifer, write a blog post, read a chapter in the 5 different books you’re reading, write two lab reports for science class, finish your “big question” essay project, practice the piano, AND on top of that, mom probably has 10 huge chores for you to do!! Hahahahaha!!!!” (This voice is very annoying)

The truth is that these two areas (i.e. God and family), require a rare kind of character and competence that Satan hates. Time spent serving our family or seeking the Lord is never wasted. Guilt or frustration due to time spent in these areas is misplaced — placed by the enemy."

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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Not the Biggest Loser...

So, I weighed in this morning at 136 lbs. Which is GREAT...but it put me in second place in the weight loss challenge. I didn't win the big money but I DID gain health and I DID lose pounds. And inches :) I still have 16 pounds to go. My goal is to lose 8 lbs this month. Two pounds a week is totally doable. So I'm putting my mind to it...and we will pray for results! I'm not in a writing mood this will be it. But I just wanted to update everyone! Halfway to friday!! :-D

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

I think I can...I think I can....I think I can....

Yesterday was great! I ate well and exercised well :) I swam about 40 laps last night...and still felt like I could do more. If it wasn't so late, I would have. I am really starting to enjoy my swim workouts. Drowning doesn't seem like much of an option anymore ;) I watched some youtube videos on transitions during the triathlon. What they look like, and how to prepare for them. How did people ever live without the internet? If it wasn't for me being able to watch how to prepare myself...I would be a nervous wreck the day of the tri. Who am I kidding, I will STILL be a nervous wreck. But at least I'll semi-know what to expect...hopefully making getting to the end of the race, that much easier. I cannot wait to cross that finish line. God Willing, of course. :)

I had the oppurtunity to speak to the vice-president of the company I work for today about organizing a 5k for the employees to participate in. It will promote wellness, raise money for a charity, and also get our name out there as a business. He seemed to really like the idea... so maybe in the near future it will transpire into something tangible!

Tomorrow is the FINAL weigh in for the weight-loss challenge at work. I definitely have a chance to win--but I am super nervous. If I dont win its OK, but the extra money would sure be nice...and just for pure bragging rights :) I am eating very minimal today and working out alot tonight....AND in the morning. I'm going swimming before work...and where I swim, also has a I might sweat out a little extra fluid before the weigh in ;) Hey, every drop counts. I'll let you be the first to know the final verdict!

Monday, March 1, 2010

Just Another Manic Monday...Oooohhhhh

What is it about the weekend that makes eating healthy so dagum hard? Though, Saturday was REALLY good sunday made up for it in a horrible way. On Saturday, I got up and ran with katie and did some weight training. Came home, cleaned a bit, and then went to the pool for about an hour. I ate really well the whole day...which I had to, to make up for my cracker barrell fiasco the night before. Then Sunday rolls around....and that was a different story. I ate a healthy breakfast. So I started off on the right track...but then we got to church. And at church they had DONUTS. so I ate two of those. grrr. Lunch wasnt bad..I had a 6" sandwhich from subway. Later in the afternoon I went to the gym...jumped on the treadmill and for some reason felt SO weak. My body was shaky and it was like I had never excercised before. So I jumped on the bike...not much better. Yesterday was just a bad day. After my "work out" which it definitely shouldnt be called that..I went home and a couple of our friends came over...I made spaghetti, green beans, and bread....and they brought a blueberry pie. BLUEBERRY PIE. It was delicious but I regret eating it now. Oh how I hate diet regrets. I am on my very best behavior for the rest of the week. The LAST weigh in for work is on Wednesday and the 5k is I kind of have alot to get working on. I am swimming tonight! My stroke is getting better and my lungs arent collapsing as quickly so I think those are all good signs of a building endurance ;) Pray that my motivation only gets stronger and that my mentality stays positive. LESS than 2 months to the the words of a teenie bopper...O.M.G.

Caroline...this picture is for you. I felt that you would appreciate the corniness of it ;)

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1 Corinthians 10:13

God has given me SELF CONTROL....where is it!? gr.

Friday, February 26, 2010

I wreak of chlorine.

Productive morning swim? check. Filling breakfast? Check. FRIDAY!? CHECK! CHECK! CHECK!!

This morning my alarm went off at 5:25 and it took all I had to not fall back into my coma. A friend from work is now going to start swimming with me in the mornings--VERY good motivation to get out of bed. I can't stand her up now can I!? Swimming went well this morning. I swam 800 meters...but still feel a little discouraged when 75 year old men can swim for an hour straight without stopping. I'll get there...soon, I hope. Today was a HUGE milestone in my endurance. The first day I started my training, I literally could not swim half of a lap(probably only 15 meters) free style without feeling like I was going to drown. "warm up" consisted of 100 meter non-stop free style swim...equivalent to 4 laps. I didn't die...and I really didnt feel like I was going to die either. It's amazing how quickly the human body changes if you just push it. And I finally am. Pushing it that is.

Tonight, I am going to the gym to RUN. I really have to keep saying in my mind..."Melanie you LOVE running". Is it ok to lie to oneself? Anyways, its a done deal. I'm doing it. And at this point I have ONE week until the 5k. So if I dont really pick up the pace(literally) in this area, it's going to be bad news bears.

Also, this coming wednesday is the LAST weigh-in for the weight loss challenge at work. I think I have a decent chance to win it...hopefully the scale will be my friend that day.

I'm back in the groove and it feels good. Self-discipline feels like my enemy more days than not, but when embraced, it's amazing the rewards that are reaped from it. That Jesus sure knows what He's talking about huh!?

GO AND ENJOY YOUR FRIDAY!!! But don't use the weekend as an excuse to eat crap ;) (I'm yelling at myself too.)

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Feeling the burn.

It is weigh-in day with work and I am down almost 3 lbs from last week!!! 136.2 was my weight today!! :) Only 16 lbs to go...and I CAN DO IT!

Yesterday, I got home from work and my husband and I went for an outdoor run. It was warm earlier in the day, but when I finally got home it was getting into the upper 30's so we had to go quickly. Neither one of us really wanted to go, but we relunctantly pushed each other. It started off so-so and then the cold wind got caught in my lungs. I thought I was going to suffocate right there on the sidewalk. I didn't really care, as long as the burning stopped. But Clay informed me I was being a wuss( in the most loving way possible of course) and I persevered. Ladies and gentleman...I ran ONE mile. That's it. But I RAN it. This doesnt seem like much to most--but I have never been able to RUN a mile. In two weeks is the 5k so I must start really pushing myself to make it to that 3 mile mark. I dont know if its exactly possible to get up to that distance in 2 weeks, but I am sure as heck going to try! A couple of hours after the run I went to the gym with katie. I biked 30 minutes and did some abs and weight training. My legs are on FIRE today. BUt its a good burn. It's a burn that tells me that I actually did something. So I'm diggin it :)

Tonight I will PUSH myself to do at least a mile and a half run and weights. Then lap swimming in the morning. True two-a-days start next week and I am getting my body geared up for it so as not to exhaust myself almost immediately.(Like when I get sick a few weeks ago).

My body is a temple for the living Lord. And I am going to start treating it like one.

"Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body." 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

P.S. Why in the world am I craving Fried Chicken right now!?!?! PRAY FOR ME!! haha ;) But seriously.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

60 Days and a wake up....

I AM SO NERVOUS. For what you ask? The triathlon. Everyday that I get closer to April 25th, another butterfly is added to my stomach. Last night I convinced Clay to come lap swimming with me. And thank goodness he did. I realized that when I "work out" alone, I am truly not pushing myself. I swim 25 meters...catch my breath, look around, think about what I am going to eat afterwards...blah blah blah...and where has it gotten me? NO WHERE. Clay kicked my butt. I would do a 25 and he would time me, give me 10 seconds to rest then tell me to go again, and again, and again, and again!!! To the point that I thought I was literally going to drown. But..I DIDNT. I pushed my body to the limit and it didnt let me down. More and more am I realizing that my body is capable of doing so much more than I give it credit for. Everything is so mental. As soon as I think something is hard, I give up, and trick myself into thinking that I am doing a "good job". I can get up at 5am and go swimming but if I am not pushing myself, my body will never change. And my goals will not be met!

There are a few websites I get on occasionally and read about 1st time triathlon experiences. They are inspiring but they also make the experience and seriousness of it extremely real. Recently, I have been very slack. The goal in mind but not in action. If I am going to do this...then I need to DO IT. It's funny because I get so frustrated at myself--but its over things that I have COMPLETE control of. What am I doing? Kicking my butt into gear. That's what I'm doing. As soon as I get home from work I am going for an outdoor is finally decently warm!(Its sad that 40 degrees feels warm to me). I already committed to going to the gym with my friend Katie as well, so I will probably do some time on the bike and definitely weight training.

I talked to my sister earlier about all my pent up anxiety. Immediately she came back with, "Be anxious for NOTHING but in everythingby prayer and supplication, with thanksgivinglet your requests be made known to God."Philippians 4:6. Wowzers(yes I just said that)...did I need such wisdom. I am freting over something because it is out of my comfort zone. But how I can already feel Christ strengthening me. I am sinning in my worrying and in my slothfulness. In fact, one sin is causing the other. How quickly they pile up and my heart becomes twisted and discouraged. Lord, I am handing my life over to you!(again) Take it from me. I want to trust you soo much more than I do. I am not alone, for You never leave me nor forsake me.

Monday, February 22, 2010

I'm Back.

So this past week has been less than productive. I got pretty discouraged because my friend, caroline, who I was suppose to be doing the triathlon with broke her wrist. :( Obviously, the triathlon isnt exactly what she should be doing with a broken bone! She is still going to be there at the finish line waiting for me. I am thankful for such a great friend! But for some reason when she told me, I got in a rut. I literally felt the motivation leave my body. Right there and then I needed to truly figure out WHY I was even doing the triathlon and getting in shape. Who was it for? I know who it SHOULD be for. But what was I doing? Definitely not bringing glory to God. I gave up and forgot all about self-control and self-discipline. Not anymore. This week I WILL work out every single day. I WILL follow my training regime and I will EAT right. Yesterday I went to one of my friend's son's birthday party...I ate cake, a cupcake, doritos, veggies with ranch, hmm chicken salad on a crossaint!! And man oh man was it good...but I felt so guilty afterwards. As I should have. What was I doing? Anything that might have held me back was gone and on the drive home I really had to pray, Jesus..HELP!!! I felt myself getting back into the same mind set that I despise. The laziness and "i dont care" attitude. SO self destructive. But today is a new day. I am going lap swimming tonight and hubby is coming with!! Yay :) Starting next week I will begin make up for tons of lost time. The triathlon is just two months away. I have alot of work to do.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Junk In = Junk Out

This morning I am feeling so sluggish. And do you want to know why? Because I ate Mcdonalds last night, that's why. I even got a "Mighty Kids Meal" with chicken nuggets, apple slices, and chocolate milk. I hardly drank ANY water yesterday and lunch was a potluck at church. Which was absolutely delicious, but not exactly healthy. Boy oh boy am I feeling it today. I got a decent nights sleep last night and woke up feeling like I hadnt slept in years. I just have a general "gross" feeling...and unless youve experienced this feeling yourself, its hard to explain. Needless to say, I have been deterred from the fast food scene for a longgg time. It's amazing..growing up I felt like I ate fast food A LOT, but never in my life have I really been able to feel the effects in my mood and in my general well-being. My poor body. What have I done to you? So, yes, yesterday was a bad day in the food department. But Friday and Saturday were much better.

Friday I went to the gym and had a decent work out. Running/biking and weights. Saturday I went to the pool and swam 650 meters. Which is just 50 meters over the length I will be doing in the tri. Now when I say I swam 650 meters...that does not mean continuously. I do take 1 minute breaks(which is too long but I will work up) in between 50-100 meters. I am going swimming again tonight. Today begins my new triathlon training schedule! I'm ready.

March 6th is when I am running the 5k with my family. My dad and brother are signed up to run it with me and my mom and aunt are signed up to walk it. I am SO proud of all them! I called my dad on Saturday, after I left the pool, and he was on his way to walk 3 miles!! Then over the next couple of weeks he will be building up to running. So awesome. He makes a daughter proud :) haha.

Is it bad that I feel like I have ZERO energy to even type this? are sooo good..but SO SO bad. blah.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20
Don't you know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself, for God bought you with a high price. So you must honor God with your body.

Friday, February 12, 2010

It's here! It's here!

My triathlon training guide is finally here!! And boy was I in for a RUDE awakening. So you know my nice little work out schedule that I thought was sooo challenging!? HA! That is nothing. This book gives you work out plans depending on your level of current fitness and what level of triathlon(sprint, olympic, ironman) you are working towards. Well according to this evaluation..I am a beginner and LEVEL 1 for my goal of a sprint tri. eek. But I truly believe that with this workout I can achieve my goal of losing weight and breezing across that finish line. The difference between my new "professional" schedule and old self-made that the new one will SERIOUSLY push me to my limits every single day. And this will be how my body changes...not from me floating around in a pool for 45 min. thinking that my doing "something" is better than not doing anything. That might be true if I am just trying to float around life but HELLO!! I have some huge goals to achieve.

Last night we had dinner with neighbors and didnt get finished until around 8 pm...but I still headed to the gym. I biked 7 miles and called it a day. lame, I know. I am so ready to start my new schedule and stick with it.

Oh, and in June, Clay and I and hopefully another couple are going on a cruise!!!!!! yesss. I am ready for a vacation and it's only february. But I am pumped. So not only do I have weight loss and the triathlon as motivators...but looking good on that cruise for my husband is quite a motivator in and of itself! I know how those girls wear bikinis....

Anyways, its friday, and I cant wait to spend time with my valentine! :) HAVE A HAPPY WEEKEND!!

And to go along with the Valentines Day theme...

"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."1 Corinthians 13:13

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Trying to Catch up...

So I purposely have not written in 4 days because I didnt want to write before I post pictures!!! But due to technical difficulties it hasnt happened yet, and it is KILLING me not to write. So please forgive me for my unfulfilled promise(I hate it when I promise something and then for some reason or another cant/dont follow maybe I should stop promising? interesting thought.). The hubby is fixing the camera and no later than a couple days will they be up. He is doing Before/After pictures of p90x so I will post his as well ;) I'm sure he will love me for that! ha! But we're in this together :)

My workouts...well, I have learned that having a week off is NOT acceptable. I have lost everything I built up the week before I was sick. All that progress I made in running... lost. BUT a good lesson learned. Everyday, even if it is just walking, I will exercise. But since I am healthy again, walking is not an option. I became remotivated yesterday. Earlier in the week, I was just going through the motions because I knew that this was what I was "suppose" to do..but yesterday, the drive I had a couple of weeks ago, was back--and its a relief. Exercising is sooo much easier when you WANT to do it. Can I get an Amen!?

I weighed in yesterday and really dont want to talk about it...but I'm blogging, so I will. Up one pound from last week. Its to be expected because I didnt get to excercise...but its amazing how quickly your body can put on the weight. This whole self-control/ self-discipline thing is going to have to last a LIFETIME and not just a couple months. This is why I do not want to diet. Because you can't diet your whole life, you just cant. It's much easier to eat HEALTHIER and smaller portions and keep the weight off than let it build up and try to starve yourself into "skinny" jeans or just health in general. I am learning this the hard way. But at least I am learning.

I appreciate your patience in my lack of pictures...I can insure you its not because I don't WANT to put them up. Or is it???, totally kidding. They will be up asap.

Lesson that I am currently learning...

This is NOT going to be easy. And it will be a lifetime struggle. But a struggle that will bare way more fruits than any kind of instant gratification will ever give me. Keep fighting people. We can do this.

"Mental toughness is many things and rather difficult to explain. Its qualities are sacrifice and self-denial. Also, most importantly, it is combined with a perfectly disciplined will that refuses to give in. It's a state of mind-you could call it character in action."

— Vince Lombardi

"So make every effort to apply the benefits of these promises to your life. Then your faith will produce a life of moral excellence. A life of moral excellence leads to knowing God better. Knowing God leads to self-control. Self- control leads to patient endurance, and patient endurance leads to godliness." 2 Peter 1:5,6

Monday, February 8, 2010

Getting Re-motivated...

I am no longer sick! Praise God! So the routine begins again tonight AND my "Before" pictures will be up But this will help me in seeing the visible changing of my body. I will take pictures this month, next month, and in April...the day before the tri.

I am going to be honest, this week there was a battle with food and the food won...especially last night at the super bowl party. I find that when I am working out it is much easier to control what I put in my mouth. I think it motivates me more, and when you work out in the morning you don't want to waste that later in the day by eating a cookie. Clay said yesterday that he is going to do the triathlon with me!! yay! This will play a HUGE hand in my motivation. He is the best when it comes to encouragement.

Ok...the "juicy" stuff will come later today...haha...i'll let you know how my work out goes tonight after my week long hibernation.

But He said, "The things which are impossible with men are possible with God." (Luke 18:27)

Thursday, February 4, 2010

"A Day without Sweat is a Day without Sunshine!"

If that is true...then my week has been VERY cloudy. I still have my cold and am doing everything possible to heal up so I can begin training again immediately. It is frustrating, but I know it is better to heal now (with vitamin C and lots of rest) than to push through it and make it last longer than it has already. I feel MUCH better today and hope that by Saturday, I will be able to start really working out. I weighed myself yesterday and was down to 138.1...a pound less than Monday. I contribute this to my stuffy nose and inability to taste anything...which causes me to eat so much less. I weighed myself again this morning and I was still sitting nicely at maybe this sick thing might work out in my favor. to only keep it off and lose MORE.

I went to Kroger yesterday to get some ingredients for dinner and was amazed how much I craved candy, debbie cakes, ANYTHING sweet that I saw...and I can't even taste at the moment! It is so much more mental than it will ever be physical. When I think in my mind that I am depriving myself of something...its like my brain automatically just CRAVES it. When in reality I just made the decision not to eat that certain food 2 minutes clearly, my body is not feeling any withdrawals. I am learning daily just how weak my mind really is. Self-control is a character trait that God is continually refining in me and something that I have struggled with my whole life. Its so easy to just say "screw it" and give in to my own desires. My own desires, which by the way, are almost always destructive to my mind, body, and spirit. Once again, it is about relying on Him in my weakness... That through conquering my sinful ways, He will be Glorified...because anyone who knows me, KNOWS that never in a million years would I be doing this on my own.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9

Tuesday, February 2, 2010


I'm still sick. The weather is awful; making trips to the pool and the gym not exactly easy or safe. I am ready to be healthy again and be able to stick to my regime! The triathlon is less than 3 months away and I am starting to freak out just a little bit. I feel like all of the progress I made last week is lost. Grrr. Ok, I'm finished with venting. Time to get into the positive.

Does anyone have any healthy recipes that might be yummy tasting as well?! I feel bad for my husband because there are about 3 "healthy and great tasting" recipes I they tend to be made ALOT. I'm not a fish eater..which I know needs to change...but anything with chicken? Or even vegetarian.

It seems that my posts are getting shorter and shorter. Once I am able to get into the groove again I'll be able to actually document my progress..but I guess it IS a journey, and journeys always have bumps in the road :) I AM NOT GIVING UP--But pushing harder.

Oh and one of my blog friends has given me courage to put before pictures those will be up this week. EEK. But it is what it is, and in April I will have pictures of a me that looks hopefully much different! Until tomorrow...

"Not by might nor by power but by my Spirit" says the Lord God Almighty. Zecariah 4:6

Monday, February 1, 2010

Somebody has a case of the Mondays....

So the weekend was not very productive. As you know, I got a cold last week but on Saturday it became more debilitating than just annoying. I got a low grade fever and just felt icky all day. Therefore I slept. And slept. And slept. I feel much better today minus a stuffy nose! But at least my head doesnt feel like it wants to spontaneously combust. All that being said, I did absolutely zero excercise. Yes, I have lots of work to do this week.

Today is Clays 25th Birthday!! :) So we will be celebrating tonight...probably with some food that isnt exactly leaning towards the healthy side--but, hey, portion control right?! After we celebrate Clay's day, Katie and I will once again head to the gym tonight and I will be swimming in the morning. I actually MISSED working out this weekend. Another first for my life.


139.8!! Back to what I weighed 2 weeks ago...this is good...especially since I was up two pounds last week.

Hopefully I can kick this cold to the curb and stay healthy during the rest of my training. Being sick seriously slows you down. Thats about all for the update as of now. This week should be much better and I will have more to report in the days to come!

"When a man is gloomy, everything seems to go wrong; when he is cheerful, everything seems right." Proverbs 15:15

Friday, January 29, 2010


FRIDAY. Yes, I love fridays. And it's funny because I don't mind going to work during the week at all. I think it is something that is just engrained in my being from elementary school...I couldn't wait for the weekend!

Yesterday wasn't great in the excercise department. Because, well, I didn't do anything. BUT Wednesday night was a cause for great encouragement! Katie and I hit up the gym to do some running(which for me has been alternating one minute walking, one minute running for about 30 minutes). Katie challenged me to run for 9 minutes straight. Now, for those of you who are super athletic this, I'm sure, sounds like nothing. But I have literally never been able to run for 9 minutes without having to stop. Sad, I know. So I gritted my teeth and pushed myself. I did it. And guess what!? I could have gone for 9 more minutes! My legs were tired, but my lungs were fine(which the lack of being able to breathe is usually what causes me to stop). In a week and a half I can already feel a huge improvement in my endurance. I can do this.

Clay and I are heading to South Carolina for the weekend. A huge snow storm is suppose to hit later today, so we are going to try to get out of here as soon as possible. Clay has drill, so I'll be having a lot of family time. Since they all signed up for the 5k I am going to try and get them out to run/walk tomorrow! Good family bonding right? ha. We'll see what they think ;)

I have a cold right now and my body feels tired. So yesterday and today I am just taking it easy. *sneeze* yuck. Oh and when I sneeze it isnt like a cute dainty has full on grandpa power. It's awesome.

Please be praying that I keep my priorities straight. HIM first. Not Me...which seems to be easier sometimes. And in loving Him, also loving the people around me. Loving my husband more than myself, my family and my friends more than myself. Already, in just a week, I have found how easy it is to put a "goal" that you have in mind for yourself, at the front of everyone and everything. In doing that, I am serving myself, and myself only. I want to love others as God loves them--and stop ANY training that I might feel is neccessary at the moment if I am neglecting my relationships with the people around me and especially my relationship with Him. Lord, make me like You.

This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. – 1 John 4:9-11

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Must. Keep. Eyes. Open.

My alarm blaringly went off at 5:15 this morning screaming at me to get out of bed. I thought about just rolling over and going back to sleep, but then I had a vision of me drowning during the triathlon so I promptly got up. I arrived at the aquatic center at 6am expecting to be the only crazy person there but I was least 20 other people were already swimming laps. If you know me, then you know how little things stress me out(which is truly something I am trying to give over to the Lord) the idea of trying to find a lane with swimmers with ab the same athletic ability and speed as myself was a little overwhelming. I am learning swimming "etiquette" when sharing lanes. Like always, it wasn't a big deal and I just got in and started swimming...and again the sensation of pulling my body through peanut butter set in, but I kept going. I swam for about 45 min., took a dip in the hot tub, and then got ready for work. It feels good to have a productive morning, but it is definitely something my body is going to have to get used to. It's one thing to do Jillian for 25 min. in the comfort of my own home...its another to be truly pushing my body, still learning the correct technique, with people who look like they came out of the womb swimming 600 meters free style.

I am going to work out with Katie tonight. Definitely alot of cardio and again some weight training. I found some great routines online and am going to give them a try.

I was really bummed this morning because I got on the scale and it said I was at 141.5 again. HOW!?! I told Clay and he said that it depends alot on hydration...I did just drink 32 oz of water so lets hope that had something to do with it. I realize it might even be a month until I see any real difference in the scale or my body--so perseverance is essential..and something that I literally have to tell myself every day.

I just read todays excerpt from My Utmost for His Highest and am amazed how God penetrates my life and knows my heart better than I do. I am going to post speaks for itself. I am convicted beyond comprehension.


"Take no thought for your life." Matthew 6:25

A warning which needs to be reiterated is that the cares of this world, the deceitfulness of riches, and the lust of other things entering in, will choke all that God puts in. We are never free from the recurring tides of this encroachment. If it does not come on the line of clothes and food, it will come on the line of money or lack of money; of friends or lack of friends; or on the line of difficult circumstances. It is one steady encroachment all the time, and unless we allow the Spirit of God to raise up the standard against it, these things will come in like a flood.

"Take no thought for your life." "Be careful about one thing only," says our Lord - "your relationship to Me." Common sense shouts loud and says - "That is absurd, I must consider how I am going to live, I must consider what I am going to eat and drink." Jesus says you must not. Beware of allowing the thought that this statement is made by One Who does not understand our particular circumstances. Jesus Christ knows our circumstances better than we do, and He says we must not think about these things so as to make them the one concern of our life. Whenever there is competition, be sure that you put your relationship to God first.

"Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof." How much evil has begun to threaten you to-day? What kind of mean little imps have been looking in and saying - Now what are you going to do next month - this summer? "Be anxious for nothing," Jesus says. Look again and think. Keep your mind on the "much more" of your heavenly Father.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Staying the course...

What a weekend! Friday night I worked out with Katie. Lots of Cardio and weight training. Saturday, I thought I would brave the pool in the early afternoon. Clay came with me and I thought it would just be an easy hour of lap swimming. WRONG. I started swimming, and about half way through the first lap I became exhausted. Clay, who was a swimmer in highschool, pretty much showed me that my technique was all wrong. I was getting tired quickly for a number of reasons...I pick my head up when breathing,when I go to breathe I stop kicking, and when it comes down to it...I'm just plain out of shape. I am so thankful he was there, because if I can perfect the techniques he showed me and just get in the water at least two times a week...I know I will see a MUCH NEEDED improvement. That being said, I changed my "tentative" schedule to a more permanent and tweaked one. In stead of doing Jillian Michaels three times a week in the morning, I will be going to the pool on mondays and fridays and just doing Jillian on Wednesdays. I really need to focus on building up my endurance. That is what will make me or break me in the race.

Later Saturday afternoon, I went to the gym and worked out again with Katie. She's great at pushing me during cardio. I am doing 30 minutes on the bike and 30 minutes on the treadmill. Then about 20-30 minutes of abs and weights. We did this again last night(Sunday). Sundays will usually be one of my days off, but I needed to make up for the two days that I did almost nothing last week.

The soreness that I was feeling the first few days has worn off. I can tell my muscles are tired the next day after a work out, but I'm not in pain. At first, I didn't know if the loss of soreness was due to me not working out hard enough or just my body getting used to it. Due to me feeling like I am literally going to die everytime, I vote the latter.
Clay and I both have been doing really well with eating..and eating much smaller portions. We both resisted donuts at church. Which I can't ever recall happening in the history of our marraige haha.

Drum roll please...139.8!! Down 1.6 lbs from last weeks 141.1! I am weighing in the same time every morning.

After all this working out and cutting calories, I think I subconciously expect the scale to say 10 lbs less in a week...but I have to keep reminding myself that this is the right way and I will keep seeing results if I stay the course.

It's amazing how I fight against laziness and gluttony every single day. I find one million excuses not to work out, or why I should have a donut or how I "deserve" it. Ha. God is really working on my integrity. Staying true to what I commit to. Letting my yes be yes and my no be no. I am holding on to Him with a tight grip because through this physical journey I am experiencing a much more intense spiritual journey. I see things in myself that are truly ugly and need to be handed over to Him. Things that I have become comfortable with in my life...laziness, people pleasing, and a lack of self control. Standing true before My Lord and not trying to please others in looks, actions, or words has been a struggle for me my entire life. If this whole process of working out and pursuing the triathlon begins to become about me and proving myself to others then I am sinning and need to stop immediately. I pray fervently that this continues to be about bringing glory to Him..because only through Him am I capable and equipped. Brothers and sisters hold me accountable! Not only in self control but in the condition of my heart. Crucifying pride and humbling myself to knowing that truly He is only worthy of the Glory.

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. -Romans 12:2-

Friday, January 22, 2010

No turning back now.

Yesterday I officially signed up and paid up for the triathlon...and it feels scary/intimidating/"ok, I am really doing this!!". I also went ahead and signed up for two 5ks just to get as much practice with that event as possible. The first one is next weekend in Columbia and the second one is on March 6, also in Columbia. The second one will be the best, not only because I will be more in shape, but because I somehow enticed my entire family to do it. Mom, Dad, brother, hopefully sister, and aunt are all signing up!! It's funny because in August for my friend Liz's Going-Away Navy weekend she signed us(The group of 7 or 8 girls staying with her) all up for a 5k...first thought.."Who would WANT to do this??"...haha, but now I understand. And I appreciate all of her efforts over the past 4 1/2 years to try to make me physically fit.

Everything here in town pretty much closed down early yesterday because of an ice storm. Therefore the gym was also closed. So tonight and this weekend, I will be trying to make up for some lost time. Tonight I will be doing cardio and weight training and tomorrow I will be lap swimming. I get so pumped to work out right before I do it, and then 2 minutes into it I realize just how out of shape I am. The rainbows and puppy dog tails fade away, and the reality of the hard work that needs to happen sets in. But I'm not jaded yet, and I pray that I won't feel that way at all during this whole process. 92 DAYS LEFT TO TRAIN.

I have been keeping my daily calorie count down to 1200 or below, and I surprisingly have not felt hungry. I am constantly eating apples, bannanas, oranges, and drinking tons of water.

I am feeling closer to God than I have in a long time. This race and level of physical fitness is something that I KNOW I cannot do without Him. My own will power has failed me time and time again and I am finally relying on Him to help me through this. Everyday I read an excerpt out of Oswald Chambers, "My Utmost for His Highest". Todays devotion convicted me of how often I turn to myself when things are going well, not giving Him the glory but instead taking pride in what "I" have done. But when things don't go how I expect them to, I find myself saying "why God?" and then, and only then, turing to Him. He is my Savior, My God, My Creator, My Lord, and My Everything. To Him Be All the Glory!! When I get through this and run across that finish line(God-Willing), it will be because of Him..not any strength that I have on my own.

I am copying it for you to read as well.


"Look unto Me, and be ye saved." Isaiah 45:22

Do we expect God to come to us with His blessings and save us? He says - Look unto Me, and be saved. The great difficulty spiritually is to concentrate on God, and it is His blessings that make it difficult. Troubles nearly always make us look to God; His blessings are apt to make us look elsewhere. The teaching of the Sermon on the Mount is, in effect - Narrow all your interests until the attitude of mind and heart and body is concentration on Jesus Christ. "Look unto Me."

Many of us have a mental conception of what a Christian should be, and the lives of the saints become a hindrance to our concentration on God. There is no salvation in this way, it is not simple enough. "Look unto Me" and - not "you will be saved," but "you are saved." The very thing we look for, we shall find if we will concentrate on Him. We get preoccupied and sulky with God, while all the time He is saying - "Look up and be saved." The difficulties and trials - the casting about in our minds as to what we shall do this summer, or to-morrow, all vanish when we look to God.

Rouse yourself up and look to God. Build your hope on Him. No matter if there are a hundred and one things that press, resolutely exclude them all and look to Him. "Look unto Me," and salvation is, the moment you look.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

I feel like jello.

This morning I woke up and literally felt like I had just been ran over by a big mac truck. I worked out again with Katie last night and could already feel my muscles getting sore before I even got home from the gym. I ate some dinner which consisted of a bowl of Special K and peas(random, I know) and plopped down to watch The Biggest Loser. Half way through, I felt myself falling asleep and by the end of the hour I was headed to bed and passed out before I knew it. Waking up with the feeling of an elephant pinning each one of my individual muscles down to the box springs in my mattress didnt exactly make for the most pleasant morning. Clay suggested I take today off instead of tomorrow just so I dont burn my body out before I even have a chance to really get started. I did just go from almost doing nothing to working out twice a I listened. That being said, I have tried to come up with a weekly schedule that will allow me to work out in each sport(swimming, biking, running), weight train, and still have two days for my body to rest and rebuild. The tentative schedule is as follows:

Sunday: OFF
Monday: Morning-30 Day Shred
Evening-1.5 hour Lap Swim

Tuesday:No Morning Work out
Evening: Weight Training and Cardio(running)

Wednesday:Morning-30 Day Shred

Thursday:OFF (Or if I will be out of down on the next saturday substitute that work out here)

Friday: Morning-30 Day Shred
Evening-Weight training and Cardio(running/biking)

Saturday:At least 1.5 hour Lap Swim

Whew, I am getting tired just reading that haha. But I think that if I really stick to it I will definitely reach my goal in weight and fitness for the triathlon. If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know. I want this to be as efficient as possible!

Something that I didn't mention earlier was that my office is doing our own Biggest Loser Challenge. It started in December and we weigh in every week. If you are the winner for the week you don't have to put any money in the pot...but as for the rest of us we are each required to put in $5.00. March 1st is the final tally day and whoever ends up losing the most of their BMI(Body Mass Index)percentage, wins the pot which is suppose to total up to $300.00. Well most of us have been lucky to lose a pound a week. I, personally, have only lost 3 pounds since starting, due to NO self control or motivation. Hopefully we will see that changing on the scales and in inches very soon!

One thing that I have been convicted about is being so zealous about all of this weight loss and fitness and not on spending time with the Lord. Before any working out I commit to just have quiet time to study The Word and be prayerful with Him. He is my rock. He is my Hope and my Joy. Without Him, I am nothing.

Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe. I long to dwell in your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of your wings. (Psalm 61:1-4)

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

I am my own worst enemy

I have seen this statement become very true in my life. For as long as I can remember I have set goals for myself and I have rarely followed through with achieving them. Yesterday, Caroline asked me if I wanted to do a triathlon with her in April. My first thought, "TRIATHLON!?! I can't even run a mile..much less swim 1/2 a mile, bike 14 miles, and run 3 more!!"(This is a sprint tri) But then my next thought is "why not? I CAN do this. I WILL put my mind to it. And I WILL finish it." There are already a lot of nay-sayers and that's fine. It's not like I have proven any different in the past. But for me, today IS different. I feel different. Not just physically(because Jillian kicked my butt this morning) but mentally. I actually believe I can do it. With Clay's awesome support, Caroline's gift of being my personal cheerleader, and God teaching me discipline, self control, and faith... I know I can do it. The Triathlon will be on April 25, 2010 in Chattanooga, TN. I am excited, nervous, terrified..but most of all, at peace. I CAN DO THIS!!!

Last night I was true to my word and worked out for a little over an hour with Katie. We ran 15 min. on the track, 20 min. on the elliptical, weights and abs. This morning the alarm clock went off at 5 am...and I was surprisingly awake. I heard Jillian in my head screaming at me to "kick my own butt" I went ahead and did the work out. Whew! I felt incredible afterwards! I had plenty of time to shower, get ready for work, feed the dogs, spend time with Clay, and was STILL 15 min. early to work! I think I can get used to this.

Breakfast: Special K Bar
1 Bannana
Lunch: Tuna Melt
Less than a handful of chips and salsa

Obviously, dinner has yet to be determined. I am thinking a grilled chicken salad. I am working out with Katie at 6 and then The Biggest Loser at 8pm! I have shamefully become an addict to this show.

Things I am learning..
Don't let ANYONE discourage you from any goal you might have. If you put your mind to it and faithfully rely on God and it is according to His Perfect Will and Purpose, YOU CAN DO IT and YOU WILL DO IT. When you doubt yourself or feel like you are beginning to give into the doubts of others, just remember that you then become your own worst enemy. You and ONLY you control how you feel, think, and react. Do not give anyone else that power.

Isaiah 40:28-31
Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

Monday, January 18, 2010

The beginning...

Welcome to my blog!! Here I am. Newly married, loving life, but 15 POUNDS heavier than I was at our wedding in May 2009. Not good. In college I was forced to semi work out with cheerleading, but since then I have had about zero motivation to do it. To be honest..I HATE working out. I seriously loathe it. But that is all over now. I have a new attitude, a new goal, and a new perspective. My goal is to lose a little over 20 pounds by mid-April. This is more than weightloss though. This is about feeling better and being in shape. Any muscle that I might have had has disappeared due to long hours of sitting at a desk at my office job. Clay is really good about self-discipline when it comes to working out. He is p90xing it up and I get out of breath walking up stairs. SAD. So here are the stats..

January 18, 2010: 141.4 lbs
April 18, 2010: 118 lbs

I am using this blog to be yet another source to hold me accountable and monitor my progress. I will be doing Jillian Michael's 30 day shred in the morning...and then working out for an hour at the gym in the evening. I will NOT be dieting...I will practice portion control and focusing on foods that actually contain nutritional value..and NO processed foods (this will be very hard...I love Little Casears pizza). I really want to learn that food is for fuel NOT for entertainment. There have been so many times that I have looked forward to going somewhere just because I knew there would be food...even when I am not hungry!! These next 90 days will be a lot of breaking bad habits and forming good ones. Please be praying for me! I will try to update every day or so. The Bible verse that is truly encouraging me today is 2 Timothy 1:7 "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline."

I will attempt to put a "before" picture up here in the very near future...much to my chagrin ;)