Watching my weight go DOWN!

Friday, January 29, 2010


FRIDAY. Yes, I love fridays. And it's funny because I don't mind going to work during the week at all. I think it is something that is just engrained in my being from elementary school...I couldn't wait for the weekend!

Yesterday wasn't great in the excercise department. Because, well, I didn't do anything. BUT Wednesday night was a cause for great encouragement! Katie and I hit up the gym to do some running(which for me has been alternating one minute walking, one minute running for about 30 minutes). Katie challenged me to run for 9 minutes straight. Now, for those of you who are super athletic this, I'm sure, sounds like nothing. But I have literally never been able to run for 9 minutes without having to stop. Sad, I know. So I gritted my teeth and pushed myself. I did it. And guess what!? I could have gone for 9 more minutes! My legs were tired, but my lungs were fine(which the lack of being able to breathe is usually what causes me to stop). In a week and a half I can already feel a huge improvement in my endurance. I can do this.

Clay and I are heading to South Carolina for the weekend. A huge snow storm is suppose to hit later today, so we are going to try to get out of here as soon as possible. Clay has drill, so I'll be having a lot of family time. Since they all signed up for the 5k I am going to try and get them out to run/walk tomorrow! Good family bonding right? ha. We'll see what they think ;)

I have a cold right now and my body feels tired. So yesterday and today I am just taking it easy. *sneeze* yuck. Oh and when I sneeze it isnt like a cute dainty has full on grandpa power. It's awesome.

Please be praying that I keep my priorities straight. HIM first. Not Me...which seems to be easier sometimes. And in loving Him, also loving the people around me. Loving my husband more than myself, my family and my friends more than myself. Already, in just a week, I have found how easy it is to put a "goal" that you have in mind for yourself, at the front of everyone and everything. In doing that, I am serving myself, and myself only. I want to love others as God loves them--and stop ANY training that I might feel is neccessary at the moment if I am neglecting my relationships with the people around me and especially my relationship with Him. Lord, make me like You.

This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. – 1 John 4:9-11

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Must. Keep. Eyes. Open.

My alarm blaringly went off at 5:15 this morning screaming at me to get out of bed. I thought about just rolling over and going back to sleep, but then I had a vision of me drowning during the triathlon so I promptly got up. I arrived at the aquatic center at 6am expecting to be the only crazy person there but I was least 20 other people were already swimming laps. If you know me, then you know how little things stress me out(which is truly something I am trying to give over to the Lord) the idea of trying to find a lane with swimmers with ab the same athletic ability and speed as myself was a little overwhelming. I am learning swimming "etiquette" when sharing lanes. Like always, it wasn't a big deal and I just got in and started swimming...and again the sensation of pulling my body through peanut butter set in, but I kept going. I swam for about 45 min., took a dip in the hot tub, and then got ready for work. It feels good to have a productive morning, but it is definitely something my body is going to have to get used to. It's one thing to do Jillian for 25 min. in the comfort of my own home...its another to be truly pushing my body, still learning the correct technique, with people who look like they came out of the womb swimming 600 meters free style.

I am going to work out with Katie tonight. Definitely alot of cardio and again some weight training. I found some great routines online and am going to give them a try.

I was really bummed this morning because I got on the scale and it said I was at 141.5 again. HOW!?! I told Clay and he said that it depends alot on hydration...I did just drink 32 oz of water so lets hope that had something to do with it. I realize it might even be a month until I see any real difference in the scale or my body--so perseverance is essential..and something that I literally have to tell myself every day.

I just read todays excerpt from My Utmost for His Highest and am amazed how God penetrates my life and knows my heart better than I do. I am going to post speaks for itself. I am convicted beyond comprehension.


"Take no thought for your life." Matthew 6:25

A warning which needs to be reiterated is that the cares of this world, the deceitfulness of riches, and the lust of other things entering in, will choke all that God puts in. We are never free from the recurring tides of this encroachment. If it does not come on the line of clothes and food, it will come on the line of money or lack of money; of friends or lack of friends; or on the line of difficult circumstances. It is one steady encroachment all the time, and unless we allow the Spirit of God to raise up the standard against it, these things will come in like a flood.

"Take no thought for your life." "Be careful about one thing only," says our Lord - "your relationship to Me." Common sense shouts loud and says - "That is absurd, I must consider how I am going to live, I must consider what I am going to eat and drink." Jesus says you must not. Beware of allowing the thought that this statement is made by One Who does not understand our particular circumstances. Jesus Christ knows our circumstances better than we do, and He says we must not think about these things so as to make them the one concern of our life. Whenever there is competition, be sure that you put your relationship to God first.

"Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof." How much evil has begun to threaten you to-day? What kind of mean little imps have been looking in and saying - Now what are you going to do next month - this summer? "Be anxious for nothing," Jesus says. Look again and think. Keep your mind on the "much more" of your heavenly Father.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Staying the course...

What a weekend! Friday night I worked out with Katie. Lots of Cardio and weight training. Saturday, I thought I would brave the pool in the early afternoon. Clay came with me and I thought it would just be an easy hour of lap swimming. WRONG. I started swimming, and about half way through the first lap I became exhausted. Clay, who was a swimmer in highschool, pretty much showed me that my technique was all wrong. I was getting tired quickly for a number of reasons...I pick my head up when breathing,when I go to breathe I stop kicking, and when it comes down to it...I'm just plain out of shape. I am so thankful he was there, because if I can perfect the techniques he showed me and just get in the water at least two times a week...I know I will see a MUCH NEEDED improvement. That being said, I changed my "tentative" schedule to a more permanent and tweaked one. In stead of doing Jillian Michaels three times a week in the morning, I will be going to the pool on mondays and fridays and just doing Jillian on Wednesdays. I really need to focus on building up my endurance. That is what will make me or break me in the race.

Later Saturday afternoon, I went to the gym and worked out again with Katie. She's great at pushing me during cardio. I am doing 30 minutes on the bike and 30 minutes on the treadmill. Then about 20-30 minutes of abs and weights. We did this again last night(Sunday). Sundays will usually be one of my days off, but I needed to make up for the two days that I did almost nothing last week.

The soreness that I was feeling the first few days has worn off. I can tell my muscles are tired the next day after a work out, but I'm not in pain. At first, I didn't know if the loss of soreness was due to me not working out hard enough or just my body getting used to it. Due to me feeling like I am literally going to die everytime, I vote the latter.
Clay and I both have been doing really well with eating..and eating much smaller portions. We both resisted donuts at church. Which I can't ever recall happening in the history of our marraige haha.

Drum roll please...139.8!! Down 1.6 lbs from last weeks 141.1! I am weighing in the same time every morning.

After all this working out and cutting calories, I think I subconciously expect the scale to say 10 lbs less in a week...but I have to keep reminding myself that this is the right way and I will keep seeing results if I stay the course.

It's amazing how I fight against laziness and gluttony every single day. I find one million excuses not to work out, or why I should have a donut or how I "deserve" it. Ha. God is really working on my integrity. Staying true to what I commit to. Letting my yes be yes and my no be no. I am holding on to Him with a tight grip because through this physical journey I am experiencing a much more intense spiritual journey. I see things in myself that are truly ugly and need to be handed over to Him. Things that I have become comfortable with in my life...laziness, people pleasing, and a lack of self control. Standing true before My Lord and not trying to please others in looks, actions, or words has been a struggle for me my entire life. If this whole process of working out and pursuing the triathlon begins to become about me and proving myself to others then I am sinning and need to stop immediately. I pray fervently that this continues to be about bringing glory to Him..because only through Him am I capable and equipped. Brothers and sisters hold me accountable! Not only in self control but in the condition of my heart. Crucifying pride and humbling myself to knowing that truly He is only worthy of the Glory.

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. -Romans 12:2-

Friday, January 22, 2010

No turning back now.

Yesterday I officially signed up and paid up for the triathlon...and it feels scary/intimidating/"ok, I am really doing this!!". I also went ahead and signed up for two 5ks just to get as much practice with that event as possible. The first one is next weekend in Columbia and the second one is on March 6, also in Columbia. The second one will be the best, not only because I will be more in shape, but because I somehow enticed my entire family to do it. Mom, Dad, brother, hopefully sister, and aunt are all signing up!! It's funny because in August for my friend Liz's Going-Away Navy weekend she signed us(The group of 7 or 8 girls staying with her) all up for a 5k...first thought.."Who would WANT to do this??"...haha, but now I understand. And I appreciate all of her efforts over the past 4 1/2 years to try to make me physically fit.

Everything here in town pretty much closed down early yesterday because of an ice storm. Therefore the gym was also closed. So tonight and this weekend, I will be trying to make up for some lost time. Tonight I will be doing cardio and weight training and tomorrow I will be lap swimming. I get so pumped to work out right before I do it, and then 2 minutes into it I realize just how out of shape I am. The rainbows and puppy dog tails fade away, and the reality of the hard work that needs to happen sets in. But I'm not jaded yet, and I pray that I won't feel that way at all during this whole process. 92 DAYS LEFT TO TRAIN.

I have been keeping my daily calorie count down to 1200 or below, and I surprisingly have not felt hungry. I am constantly eating apples, bannanas, oranges, and drinking tons of water.

I am feeling closer to God than I have in a long time. This race and level of physical fitness is something that I KNOW I cannot do without Him. My own will power has failed me time and time again and I am finally relying on Him to help me through this. Everyday I read an excerpt out of Oswald Chambers, "My Utmost for His Highest". Todays devotion convicted me of how often I turn to myself when things are going well, not giving Him the glory but instead taking pride in what "I" have done. But when things don't go how I expect them to, I find myself saying "why God?" and then, and only then, turing to Him. He is my Savior, My God, My Creator, My Lord, and My Everything. To Him Be All the Glory!! When I get through this and run across that finish line(God-Willing), it will be because of Him..not any strength that I have on my own.

I am copying it for you to read as well.


"Look unto Me, and be ye saved." Isaiah 45:22

Do we expect God to come to us with His blessings and save us? He says - Look unto Me, and be saved. The great difficulty spiritually is to concentrate on God, and it is His blessings that make it difficult. Troubles nearly always make us look to God; His blessings are apt to make us look elsewhere. The teaching of the Sermon on the Mount is, in effect - Narrow all your interests until the attitude of mind and heart and body is concentration on Jesus Christ. "Look unto Me."

Many of us have a mental conception of what a Christian should be, and the lives of the saints become a hindrance to our concentration on God. There is no salvation in this way, it is not simple enough. "Look unto Me" and - not "you will be saved," but "you are saved." The very thing we look for, we shall find if we will concentrate on Him. We get preoccupied and sulky with God, while all the time He is saying - "Look up and be saved." The difficulties and trials - the casting about in our minds as to what we shall do this summer, or to-morrow, all vanish when we look to God.

Rouse yourself up and look to God. Build your hope on Him. No matter if there are a hundred and one things that press, resolutely exclude them all and look to Him. "Look unto Me," and salvation is, the moment you look.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

I feel like jello.

This morning I woke up and literally felt like I had just been ran over by a big mac truck. I worked out again with Katie last night and could already feel my muscles getting sore before I even got home from the gym. I ate some dinner which consisted of a bowl of Special K and peas(random, I know) and plopped down to watch The Biggest Loser. Half way through, I felt myself falling asleep and by the end of the hour I was headed to bed and passed out before I knew it. Waking up with the feeling of an elephant pinning each one of my individual muscles down to the box springs in my mattress didnt exactly make for the most pleasant morning. Clay suggested I take today off instead of tomorrow just so I dont burn my body out before I even have a chance to really get started. I did just go from almost doing nothing to working out twice a I listened. That being said, I have tried to come up with a weekly schedule that will allow me to work out in each sport(swimming, biking, running), weight train, and still have two days for my body to rest and rebuild. The tentative schedule is as follows:

Sunday: OFF
Monday: Morning-30 Day Shred
Evening-1.5 hour Lap Swim

Tuesday:No Morning Work out
Evening: Weight Training and Cardio(running)

Wednesday:Morning-30 Day Shred

Thursday:OFF (Or if I will be out of down on the next saturday substitute that work out here)

Friday: Morning-30 Day Shred
Evening-Weight training and Cardio(running/biking)

Saturday:At least 1.5 hour Lap Swim

Whew, I am getting tired just reading that haha. But I think that if I really stick to it I will definitely reach my goal in weight and fitness for the triathlon. If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know. I want this to be as efficient as possible!

Something that I didn't mention earlier was that my office is doing our own Biggest Loser Challenge. It started in December and we weigh in every week. If you are the winner for the week you don't have to put any money in the pot...but as for the rest of us we are each required to put in $5.00. March 1st is the final tally day and whoever ends up losing the most of their BMI(Body Mass Index)percentage, wins the pot which is suppose to total up to $300.00. Well most of us have been lucky to lose a pound a week. I, personally, have only lost 3 pounds since starting, due to NO self control or motivation. Hopefully we will see that changing on the scales and in inches very soon!

One thing that I have been convicted about is being so zealous about all of this weight loss and fitness and not on spending time with the Lord. Before any working out I commit to just have quiet time to study The Word and be prayerful with Him. He is my rock. He is my Hope and my Joy. Without Him, I am nothing.

Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe. I long to dwell in your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of your wings. (Psalm 61:1-4)

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

I am my own worst enemy

I have seen this statement become very true in my life. For as long as I can remember I have set goals for myself and I have rarely followed through with achieving them. Yesterday, Caroline asked me if I wanted to do a triathlon with her in April. My first thought, "TRIATHLON!?! I can't even run a mile..much less swim 1/2 a mile, bike 14 miles, and run 3 more!!"(This is a sprint tri) But then my next thought is "why not? I CAN do this. I WILL put my mind to it. And I WILL finish it." There are already a lot of nay-sayers and that's fine. It's not like I have proven any different in the past. But for me, today IS different. I feel different. Not just physically(because Jillian kicked my butt this morning) but mentally. I actually believe I can do it. With Clay's awesome support, Caroline's gift of being my personal cheerleader, and God teaching me discipline, self control, and faith... I know I can do it. The Triathlon will be on April 25, 2010 in Chattanooga, TN. I am excited, nervous, terrified..but most of all, at peace. I CAN DO THIS!!!

Last night I was true to my word and worked out for a little over an hour with Katie. We ran 15 min. on the track, 20 min. on the elliptical, weights and abs. This morning the alarm clock went off at 5 am...and I was surprisingly awake. I heard Jillian in my head screaming at me to "kick my own butt" I went ahead and did the work out. Whew! I felt incredible afterwards! I had plenty of time to shower, get ready for work, feed the dogs, spend time with Clay, and was STILL 15 min. early to work! I think I can get used to this.

Breakfast: Special K Bar
1 Bannana
Lunch: Tuna Melt
Less than a handful of chips and salsa

Obviously, dinner has yet to be determined. I am thinking a grilled chicken salad. I am working out with Katie at 6 and then The Biggest Loser at 8pm! I have shamefully become an addict to this show.

Things I am learning..
Don't let ANYONE discourage you from any goal you might have. If you put your mind to it and faithfully rely on God and it is according to His Perfect Will and Purpose, YOU CAN DO IT and YOU WILL DO IT. When you doubt yourself or feel like you are beginning to give into the doubts of others, just remember that you then become your own worst enemy. You and ONLY you control how you feel, think, and react. Do not give anyone else that power.

Isaiah 40:28-31
Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

Monday, January 18, 2010

The beginning...

Welcome to my blog!! Here I am. Newly married, loving life, but 15 POUNDS heavier than I was at our wedding in May 2009. Not good. In college I was forced to semi work out with cheerleading, but since then I have had about zero motivation to do it. To be honest..I HATE working out. I seriously loathe it. But that is all over now. I have a new attitude, a new goal, and a new perspective. My goal is to lose a little over 20 pounds by mid-April. This is more than weightloss though. This is about feeling better and being in shape. Any muscle that I might have had has disappeared due to long hours of sitting at a desk at my office job. Clay is really good about self-discipline when it comes to working out. He is p90xing it up and I get out of breath walking up stairs. SAD. So here are the stats..

January 18, 2010: 141.4 lbs
April 18, 2010: 118 lbs

I am using this blog to be yet another source to hold me accountable and monitor my progress. I will be doing Jillian Michael's 30 day shred in the morning...and then working out for an hour at the gym in the evening. I will NOT be dieting...I will practice portion control and focusing on foods that actually contain nutritional value..and NO processed foods (this will be very hard...I love Little Casears pizza). I really want to learn that food is for fuel NOT for entertainment. There have been so many times that I have looked forward to going somewhere just because I knew there would be food...even when I am not hungry!! These next 90 days will be a lot of breaking bad habits and forming good ones. Please be praying for me! I will try to update every day or so. The Bible verse that is truly encouraging me today is 2 Timothy 1:7 "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline."

I will attempt to put a "before" picture up here in the very near future...much to my chagrin ;)