Watching my weight go DOWN!

Friday, February 26, 2010

I wreak of chlorine.

Productive morning swim? check. Filling breakfast? Check. FRIDAY!? CHECK! CHECK! CHECK!!

This morning my alarm went off at 5:25 and it took all I had to not fall back into my coma. A friend from work is now going to start swimming with me in the mornings--VERY good motivation to get out of bed. I can't stand her up now can I!? Swimming went well this morning. I swam 800 meters...but still feel a little discouraged when 75 year old men can swim for an hour straight without stopping. I'll get there...soon, I hope. Today was a HUGE milestone in my endurance. The first day I started my training, I literally could not swim half of a lap(probably only 15 meters) free style without feeling like I was going to drown. "warm up" consisted of 100 meter non-stop free style swim...equivalent to 4 laps. I didn't die...and I really didnt feel like I was going to die either. It's amazing how quickly the human body changes if you just push it. And I finally am. Pushing it that is.

Tonight, I am going to the gym to RUN. I really have to keep saying in my mind..."Melanie you LOVE running". Is it ok to lie to oneself? Anyways, its a done deal. I'm doing it. And at this point I have ONE week until the 5k. So if I dont really pick up the pace(literally) in this area, it's going to be bad news bears.

Also, this coming wednesday is the LAST weigh-in for the weight loss challenge at work. I think I have a decent chance to win it...hopefully the scale will be my friend that day.

I'm back in the groove and it feels good. Self-discipline feels like my enemy more days than not, but when embraced, it's amazing the rewards that are reaped from it. That Jesus sure knows what He's talking about huh!?

GO AND ENJOY YOUR FRIDAY!!! But don't use the weekend as an excuse to eat crap ;) (I'm yelling at myself too.)

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Feeling the burn.

It is weigh-in day with work and I am down almost 3 lbs from last week!!! 136.2 was my weight today!! :) Only 16 lbs to go...and I CAN DO IT!

Yesterday, I got home from work and my husband and I went for an outdoor run. It was warm earlier in the day, but when I finally got home it was getting into the upper 30's so we had to go quickly. Neither one of us really wanted to go, but we relunctantly pushed each other. It started off so-so and then the cold wind got caught in my lungs. I thought I was going to suffocate right there on the sidewalk. I didn't really care, as long as the burning stopped. But Clay informed me I was being a wuss( in the most loving way possible of course) and I persevered. Ladies and gentleman...I ran ONE mile. That's it. But I RAN it. This doesnt seem like much to most--but I have never been able to RUN a mile. In two weeks is the 5k so I must start really pushing myself to make it to that 3 mile mark. I dont know if its exactly possible to get up to that distance in 2 weeks, but I am sure as heck going to try! A couple of hours after the run I went to the gym with katie. I biked 30 minutes and did some abs and weight training. My legs are on FIRE today. BUt its a good burn. It's a burn that tells me that I actually did something. So I'm diggin it :)

Tonight I will PUSH myself to do at least a mile and a half run and weights. Then lap swimming in the morning. True two-a-days start next week and I am getting my body geared up for it so as not to exhaust myself almost immediately.(Like when I get sick a few weeks ago).

My body is a temple for the living Lord. And I am going to start treating it like one.

"Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body." 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

P.S. Why in the world am I craving Fried Chicken right now!?!?! PRAY FOR ME!! haha ;) But seriously.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

60 Days and a wake up....

I AM SO NERVOUS. For what you ask? The triathlon. Everyday that I get closer to April 25th, another butterfly is added to my stomach. Last night I convinced Clay to come lap swimming with me. And thank goodness he did. I realized that when I "work out" alone, I am truly not pushing myself. I swim 25 meters...catch my breath, look around, think about what I am going to eat afterwards...blah blah blah...and where has it gotten me? NO WHERE. Clay kicked my butt. I would do a 25 and he would time me, give me 10 seconds to rest then tell me to go again, and again, and again, and again!!! To the point that I thought I was literally going to drown. But..I DIDNT. I pushed my body to the limit and it didnt let me down. More and more am I realizing that my body is capable of doing so much more than I give it credit for. Everything is so mental. As soon as I think something is hard, I give up, and trick myself into thinking that I am doing a "good job". I can get up at 5am and go swimming but if I am not pushing myself, my body will never change. And my goals will not be met!

There are a few websites I get on occasionally and read about 1st time triathlon experiences. They are inspiring but they also make the experience and seriousness of it extremely real. Recently, I have been very slack. The goal in mind but not in action. If I am going to do this...then I need to DO IT. It's funny because I get so frustrated at myself--but its over things that I have COMPLETE control of. What am I doing? Kicking my butt into gear. That's what I'm doing. As soon as I get home from work I am going for an outdoor is finally decently warm!(Its sad that 40 degrees feels warm to me). I already committed to going to the gym with my friend Katie as well, so I will probably do some time on the bike and definitely weight training.

I talked to my sister earlier about all my pent up anxiety. Immediately she came back with, "Be anxious for NOTHING but in everythingby prayer and supplication, with thanksgivinglet your requests be made known to God."Philippians 4:6. Wowzers(yes I just said that)...did I need such wisdom. I am freting over something because it is out of my comfort zone. But how I can already feel Christ strengthening me. I am sinning in my worrying and in my slothfulness. In fact, one sin is causing the other. How quickly they pile up and my heart becomes twisted and discouraged. Lord, I am handing my life over to you!(again) Take it from me. I want to trust you soo much more than I do. I am not alone, for You never leave me nor forsake me.

Monday, February 22, 2010

I'm Back.

So this past week has been less than productive. I got pretty discouraged because my friend, caroline, who I was suppose to be doing the triathlon with broke her wrist. :( Obviously, the triathlon isnt exactly what she should be doing with a broken bone! She is still going to be there at the finish line waiting for me. I am thankful for such a great friend! But for some reason when she told me, I got in a rut. I literally felt the motivation leave my body. Right there and then I needed to truly figure out WHY I was even doing the triathlon and getting in shape. Who was it for? I know who it SHOULD be for. But what was I doing? Definitely not bringing glory to God. I gave up and forgot all about self-control and self-discipline. Not anymore. This week I WILL work out every single day. I WILL follow my training regime and I will EAT right. Yesterday I went to one of my friend's son's birthday party...I ate cake, a cupcake, doritos, veggies with ranch, hmm chicken salad on a crossaint!! And man oh man was it good...but I felt so guilty afterwards. As I should have. What was I doing? Anything that might have held me back was gone and on the drive home I really had to pray, Jesus..HELP!!! I felt myself getting back into the same mind set that I despise. The laziness and "i dont care" attitude. SO self destructive. But today is a new day. I am going lap swimming tonight and hubby is coming with!! Yay :) Starting next week I will begin make up for tons of lost time. The triathlon is just two months away. I have alot of work to do.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Junk In = Junk Out

This morning I am feeling so sluggish. And do you want to know why? Because I ate Mcdonalds last night, that's why. I even got a "Mighty Kids Meal" with chicken nuggets, apple slices, and chocolate milk. I hardly drank ANY water yesterday and lunch was a potluck at church. Which was absolutely delicious, but not exactly healthy. Boy oh boy am I feeling it today. I got a decent nights sleep last night and woke up feeling like I hadnt slept in years. I just have a general "gross" feeling...and unless youve experienced this feeling yourself, its hard to explain. Needless to say, I have been deterred from the fast food scene for a longgg time. It's amazing..growing up I felt like I ate fast food A LOT, but never in my life have I really been able to feel the effects in my mood and in my general well-being. My poor body. What have I done to you? So, yes, yesterday was a bad day in the food department. But Friday and Saturday were much better.

Friday I went to the gym and had a decent work out. Running/biking and weights. Saturday I went to the pool and swam 650 meters. Which is just 50 meters over the length I will be doing in the tri. Now when I say I swam 650 meters...that does not mean continuously. I do take 1 minute breaks(which is too long but I will work up) in between 50-100 meters. I am going swimming again tonight. Today begins my new triathlon training schedule! I'm ready.

March 6th is when I am running the 5k with my family. My dad and brother are signed up to run it with me and my mom and aunt are signed up to walk it. I am SO proud of all them! I called my dad on Saturday, after I left the pool, and he was on his way to walk 3 miles!! Then over the next couple of weeks he will be building up to running. So awesome. He makes a daughter proud :) haha.

Is it bad that I feel like I have ZERO energy to even type this? are sooo good..but SO SO bad. blah.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20
Don't you know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself, for God bought you with a high price. So you must honor God with your body.

Friday, February 12, 2010

It's here! It's here!

My triathlon training guide is finally here!! And boy was I in for a RUDE awakening. So you know my nice little work out schedule that I thought was sooo challenging!? HA! That is nothing. This book gives you work out plans depending on your level of current fitness and what level of triathlon(sprint, olympic, ironman) you are working towards. Well according to this evaluation..I am a beginner and LEVEL 1 for my goal of a sprint tri. eek. But I truly believe that with this workout I can achieve my goal of losing weight and breezing across that finish line. The difference between my new "professional" schedule and old self-made that the new one will SERIOUSLY push me to my limits every single day. And this will be how my body changes...not from me floating around in a pool for 45 min. thinking that my doing "something" is better than not doing anything. That might be true if I am just trying to float around life but HELLO!! I have some huge goals to achieve.

Last night we had dinner with neighbors and didnt get finished until around 8 pm...but I still headed to the gym. I biked 7 miles and called it a day. lame, I know. I am so ready to start my new schedule and stick with it.

Oh, and in June, Clay and I and hopefully another couple are going on a cruise!!!!!! yesss. I am ready for a vacation and it's only february. But I am pumped. So not only do I have weight loss and the triathlon as motivators...but looking good on that cruise for my husband is quite a motivator in and of itself! I know how those girls wear bikinis....

Anyways, its friday, and I cant wait to spend time with my valentine! :) HAVE A HAPPY WEEKEND!!

And to go along with the Valentines Day theme...

"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."1 Corinthians 13:13

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Trying to Catch up...

So I purposely have not written in 4 days because I didnt want to write before I post pictures!!! But due to technical difficulties it hasnt happened yet, and it is KILLING me not to write. So please forgive me for my unfulfilled promise(I hate it when I promise something and then for some reason or another cant/dont follow maybe I should stop promising? interesting thought.). The hubby is fixing the camera and no later than a couple days will they be up. He is doing Before/After pictures of p90x so I will post his as well ;) I'm sure he will love me for that! ha! But we're in this together :)

My workouts...well, I have learned that having a week off is NOT acceptable. I have lost everything I built up the week before I was sick. All that progress I made in running... lost. BUT a good lesson learned. Everyday, even if it is just walking, I will exercise. But since I am healthy again, walking is not an option. I became remotivated yesterday. Earlier in the week, I was just going through the motions because I knew that this was what I was "suppose" to do..but yesterday, the drive I had a couple of weeks ago, was back--and its a relief. Exercising is sooo much easier when you WANT to do it. Can I get an Amen!?

I weighed in yesterday and really dont want to talk about it...but I'm blogging, so I will. Up one pound from last week. Its to be expected because I didnt get to excercise...but its amazing how quickly your body can put on the weight. This whole self-control/ self-discipline thing is going to have to last a LIFETIME and not just a couple months. This is why I do not want to diet. Because you can't diet your whole life, you just cant. It's much easier to eat HEALTHIER and smaller portions and keep the weight off than let it build up and try to starve yourself into "skinny" jeans or just health in general. I am learning this the hard way. But at least I am learning.

I appreciate your patience in my lack of pictures...I can insure you its not because I don't WANT to put them up. Or is it???, totally kidding. They will be up asap.

Lesson that I am currently learning...

This is NOT going to be easy. And it will be a lifetime struggle. But a struggle that will bare way more fruits than any kind of instant gratification will ever give me. Keep fighting people. We can do this.

"Mental toughness is many things and rather difficult to explain. Its qualities are sacrifice and self-denial. Also, most importantly, it is combined with a perfectly disciplined will that refuses to give in. It's a state of mind-you could call it character in action."

— Vince Lombardi

"So make every effort to apply the benefits of these promises to your life. Then your faith will produce a life of moral excellence. A life of moral excellence leads to knowing God better. Knowing God leads to self-control. Self- control leads to patient endurance, and patient endurance leads to godliness." 2 Peter 1:5,6

Monday, February 8, 2010

Getting Re-motivated...

I am no longer sick! Praise God! So the routine begins again tonight AND my "Before" pictures will be up But this will help me in seeing the visible changing of my body. I will take pictures this month, next month, and in April...the day before the tri.

I am going to be honest, this week there was a battle with food and the food won...especially last night at the super bowl party. I find that when I am working out it is much easier to control what I put in my mouth. I think it motivates me more, and when you work out in the morning you don't want to waste that later in the day by eating a cookie. Clay said yesterday that he is going to do the triathlon with me!! yay! This will play a HUGE hand in my motivation. He is the best when it comes to encouragement.

Ok...the "juicy" stuff will come later today...haha...i'll let you know how my work out goes tonight after my week long hibernation.

But He said, "The things which are impossible with men are possible with God." (Luke 18:27)

Thursday, February 4, 2010

"A Day without Sweat is a Day without Sunshine!"

If that is true...then my week has been VERY cloudy. I still have my cold and am doing everything possible to heal up so I can begin training again immediately. It is frustrating, but I know it is better to heal now (with vitamin C and lots of rest) than to push through it and make it last longer than it has already. I feel MUCH better today and hope that by Saturday, I will be able to start really working out. I weighed myself yesterday and was down to 138.1...a pound less than Monday. I contribute this to my stuffy nose and inability to taste anything...which causes me to eat so much less. I weighed myself again this morning and I was still sitting nicely at maybe this sick thing might work out in my favor. to only keep it off and lose MORE.

I went to Kroger yesterday to get some ingredients for dinner and was amazed how much I craved candy, debbie cakes, ANYTHING sweet that I saw...and I can't even taste at the moment! It is so much more mental than it will ever be physical. When I think in my mind that I am depriving myself of something...its like my brain automatically just CRAVES it. When in reality I just made the decision not to eat that certain food 2 minutes clearly, my body is not feeling any withdrawals. I am learning daily just how weak my mind really is. Self-control is a character trait that God is continually refining in me and something that I have struggled with my whole life. Its so easy to just say "screw it" and give in to my own desires. My own desires, which by the way, are almost always destructive to my mind, body, and spirit. Once again, it is about relying on Him in my weakness... That through conquering my sinful ways, He will be Glorified...because anyone who knows me, KNOWS that never in a million years would I be doing this on my own.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9

Tuesday, February 2, 2010


I'm still sick. The weather is awful; making trips to the pool and the gym not exactly easy or safe. I am ready to be healthy again and be able to stick to my regime! The triathlon is less than 3 months away and I am starting to freak out just a little bit. I feel like all of the progress I made last week is lost. Grrr. Ok, I'm finished with venting. Time to get into the positive.

Does anyone have any healthy recipes that might be yummy tasting as well?! I feel bad for my husband because there are about 3 "healthy and great tasting" recipes I they tend to be made ALOT. I'm not a fish eater..which I know needs to change...but anything with chicken? Or even vegetarian.

It seems that my posts are getting shorter and shorter. Once I am able to get into the groove again I'll be able to actually document my progress..but I guess it IS a journey, and journeys always have bumps in the road :) I AM NOT GIVING UP--But pushing harder.

Oh and one of my blog friends has given me courage to put before pictures those will be up this week. EEK. But it is what it is, and in April I will have pictures of a me that looks hopefully much different! Until tomorrow...

"Not by might nor by power but by my Spirit" says the Lord God Almighty. Zecariah 4:6

Monday, February 1, 2010

Somebody has a case of the Mondays....

So the weekend was not very productive. As you know, I got a cold last week but on Saturday it became more debilitating than just annoying. I got a low grade fever and just felt icky all day. Therefore I slept. And slept. And slept. I feel much better today minus a stuffy nose! But at least my head doesnt feel like it wants to spontaneously combust. All that being said, I did absolutely zero excercise. Yes, I have lots of work to do this week.

Today is Clays 25th Birthday!! :) So we will be celebrating tonight...probably with some food that isnt exactly leaning towards the healthy side--but, hey, portion control right?! After we celebrate Clay's day, Katie and I will once again head to the gym tonight and I will be swimming in the morning. I actually MISSED working out this weekend. Another first for my life.


139.8!! Back to what I weighed 2 weeks ago...this is good...especially since I was up two pounds last week.

Hopefully I can kick this cold to the curb and stay healthy during the rest of my training. Being sick seriously slows you down. Thats about all for the update as of now. This week should be much better and I will have more to report in the days to come!

"When a man is gloomy, everything seems to go wrong; when he is cheerful, everything seems right." Proverbs 15:15